for jane's blog

mah dreeeaaaam :)


we were at school in the refect table area, it was lunch time style but it was nearly five pm - so after school, but a lot of people were there (including jasper).
i was ignoring jasper, hanging out with jaimee and angie and jane and cam and alex and liz. jaimee and i had this plan to annoy the hell out of everyone as much as possible, using these noisemakers that make your voice sound like a duck quacking.
we did that and then i saw jasper trying to get closer to me, to talk to me about breaking up, and he was crying by the glass doors on level four.
i felt a little bad but i was in the middle of trying to annoy people with the quacky things so i ignored him and he just kinda disappeared.
then i was supposed to ride home because i had to be home by five forty-five, and so i got jaimee to take this big bag of stuff we were going to annoy people with home in her car so i didn't have to attach it to my bike. then jane and alex came along and were like hey we need to go to this mountain (i think it was mt coot-tha).
so we hopped into a BMW four wheel drive (which was apparently jane's dad's) and jane was in the drivers seat and alex in the passenger seat and i was in the back.
we drove through these mountains (ironbark style) and came to some place that was in the middle of a golf course, sort of, but really high up.
it was called 'the dome attic' and we parked, then went up inside and it was all modern and nightclub-esque, and we ordered chips and they were just like carraway chips.
we ate the chips and then it was five fifteen and i was like OMG I NEED TO GET HOME so i got on my bike and somehow we were kinda near suburbs near my house and i was in the valley when this dude crashed into me in a car. so then jane and alex are back, we're in jane's car, and i'm not hurt at all but we go to this medical centre and jane's dad's the doctor (lolwut!) and then we went up this set of stairs that was at the back of the REALLY narrow medical centre room, and we were in 'the dome attic' again.

and then i woke up.


check her out at nightmaresintransit.blogspot.com :)

i never notice what i've got until it's gone.

i liked jasper, but when we started going out i missed being able to hang out with my guy friends all the time, and be affectionate to them as well as my girl friends.
the way everything was last year just... fit. i don't know - i just guess i've been missing how it was - just the little things, like sending ridiculous emails in class, all the time, and hanging out, and god i miss everyone just trying to escape together - we all fit together so well, but everything just seemed to change at the end there.
it's like everything was so complicated, the only thing that made sense was 'us'.
i miss this;
















and this;

but i think we're getting it back now.

smt dance on friday; all of us together again :)

gah.

Everything feels like crap today.
I haven't seen my best friend in weeks.
My school friends are being distant and strange.
I need to see Tori, and I need to have a nap.
None of these things are going to happen this weekend.
I'm so tired.